Wednesday, 19 September 2012


This is my 50th post and probably the most important post out of them all.

This a different sort of post for me, it's very personal to me but I thought that this issue is so well known but needs to be solved.

I think a lot of people get bullied and it's the worst experience for anyone and it should be stopped.

There's two types of bullying- Cyber and Physical there both as bad as each other it effects everyone mentally. I've suffered both but I found just words are the most hurtful and it truly affected me.

So many people kill themselves because of bullying and everyone deserves to have a happy life, I got told I should jump of a cliff and kill myself which was the worse thing someone ever said to me and it really upset me and shuck me up.

I suffered bullying on and off for many years, the first time was when I was 10/11, then the second time when I was 13 and then the last time was when I was 15, it was the worst years of my life, I was so unhappy and lonely, I used to cry myself to sleep. My parents did know but I just said I was fine and it didn't bother me but I lied because I didn't want school to be involved because I thought it would make it worse. I used to not retaliate and say nothing, I wish I had stood up for myself that's what I regret. I did things that I'm ashamed of and wish I hadn't done it but at the time I thought it was the best way of expressing how I was feeling.

What I found worse was been bullied by someone who I thought was my friend, you never aspect someone who you tell most things to, to turn around and be so horrible and nasty to you, I was worried that they would tell people personal stuff I had told them so I still find it really hard to trust people.

Bullying never truly leaves you, I've been told I'm ugly and fat and it still sticks with me, when people say I'm pretty it does make me feel better about myself but it's still in the back of my mind that there lying and I'm just ugly and fat.

 I hope know one has to feel the way I did, it was truly awful and the worse part of my life for me.

Whatever a bully says don't listen to them your all beautiful and perfect the way you are and shouldn't change for anyone.
I know it sounds cliche but it does get better, it sometimes does take longer than others but it will get better and everyone should stay strong.

You should tell someone let your parents, teachers, friends whoever you trust let them know and they can deal with it, know one deserves to be bullied and it should be stopped.


I hope this post helps anyone that is suffering from bullying or has been bullied. It took me a while to write this and it was very hard for me to talk about it but I hope it can help any of you.

I just want to let all of you know, if you ever need to talk about anything, I'm always here for you, just contact me through twitter ashleighcarrxx or email me or leave a comment below and I will reply to all of you.

Ashleigh xx


  1. Thanks for doing this post!! It is really important to spread the word about bullying.

    No one should make you feel less than special!!

    x x x

    Twitter: BryonyLaura

    1. I agree, it should be spread, it should be stopped xx

  2. This is a good post Ashleigh.
    I'm sorry to hear you were bullied, and that somebody said those terrible things to you. I was bullied for a short period of time by one person in particular. I did stand up for myself and told her where to go, but unfortunately that did not stop her. I just tried my best to distance myself from her (which is super hard in high school and online) but luckily she got bored and we both moved on to different places.

    I hope that bullies out there read this and realise what an effect it can have on people - that yes, some people can even turn to suicide because of it.

    I think it's very strong of you to stand up and be open about it! People need to stand up against these people, even if it means getting your parents and school involved! Don't bow down to threats! If they say they'll do something horrible just because you tell, then that means they know they are doing something really, really wrong!

    Again Ashleigh, good post and congrats on the 50 posts :)

    1. Thank you, I'm glad I did the post didn't know if I should or not and it was very personal to me and it is hard to talk about, it was a bad experience but it has made me stronger xx

  3. awwww so sorry lovely you had to go through this. You are by no means ugly or fat so never listen to what the bullies say to you and keep your chin up! Lots of love xxx

  4. i've never been bullied ive had the odd name call but ive always laughed it off. i wish i could cuddle you. it's so sad to see how much words can harm people. your beautiful ash xxxxx

    1. Aww thank you hun and it can truly affect you just words xxxx

  5. I can relate so much to posts like these n think its amazin of u to type a post like this

    btw i nominated u for the Liebster award

    1. thank you and i will do it soon :) xxx